Rebel Without A Pause

birthday boy

Happy birthday Jin. Here’s to a year of friendship. :)

Dr lecter, the vampire, and Hyde.

sweet Ryu! Thanks for looking after me and Del! <3

Birthday presents for Amrita

Last Sunday i went for Tilu’s exorcism…. I mean, baptism ,at a church in geylang ( don’t ask me why they have churches in the middle of Geylang), and by doing so, it meant that I had to break my record of not having been to church in four years. I quickly excused myself using the pretext of going to the bathroom and made my exit as quickly as I possibly could.

So anyway…. in 9 days, Amrita will finally be declared of age and will be able to enter places of vice without the help of ‘Nandita”. I shall mark the special occasion by giving her a special ” coming of age” gift. Trouble is, I have absolutely no clue what to give her!! And so I hit upon the idea of giving her a DOLLY!!! Which little girl doesn’t like DOLLIES??? HUH?!! HUH??!!!! OK, pick one.

A) Evil laugh-a-lot doll

B) Living dead doll

( Revenant is my personal favourite)

C) Voodoo doll!!

Im still alive, and apparently I made fat Jane and the devil very happy by running away from home. *snorts* Thank you to all my friends for caring and offering me lodging, help, and a listening ear. You guys are awesome. <3

8/9/2009

Out brief light, like a candle in the cold winter night,

Too soon did you pass from here,

With naught a word of goodbye to those who held you dear.

Your death caused a rend in the canvas of reality, of life, love and mortality,

turning forever into a day,

your memory will never fade away.

R.I.P Doug. We’ll miss you.

We all want the same things.

Doesn’t matter if they care or if they don’t care less
You got your finger on the trigger of your favourite black dress
It’s okay at the end of the day
Doesn’t matter if you’re open or afraid to fall
All that matters is that you stay true to who you are
It’s okay at the end of the day……

We all wanna live, we all wanna learn
How to love without getting burned

Amrita, please get well soon. And don’t you say you have no one because you have me. =)
And to Dong: you were there for me once, and I will be here for you too. And I will do my best as a friend to help get you through this.

Bullet with broken wings

When everything feels like the movies,

yeah you bleed just to know you’re alive.

Yesterday I had an epiphany.I realised that I was inexorably and utterly alone. Not alone in the physical sense, but something closer to the heart. Suddenly i was overwhelmed by a sense of complete alienation from my friends. Entrapped in a waking dream, reminiscing on pathos of solitude that came rushing back to me in a crushing blur. I remember that poignant quote by Orson Welles…  how did it go? Ah yes….  “We’re born alone, we live alone, we die alone. Only through our love and friendship can we create the illusion for the moment that we’re not alone.”

But my illusion is broken.

We all walk alone. At least, I know I do. I am dispensable. It hurts the most when you know that your presence is expendable to your loved ones, you friends. But then again, aren’t we all? Realization is painful. Awareness is painful. But so quintessentially acute in defining what is human. And I am human.

Don't break, don't break my heart, and i wont break your heart-shaped glasses.

And the only thing you’ll ever be married to is your self pity.

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my new baby.

there she is…. in pride of place in my farking messy room.

coo coo, Kachoo!!!!!

damage:

Gunmetal-grey full faced helmet : $180

Riding licence fund : $400/ $2500

The look on my mother’s face when I bring home a helmet : Priceless.

Not saying what it’s for in case mr Law-Abiding-Government-ball carrying traffic police officer decides to turn me in. Just kidding!! AND …..thanks in advance Jeremy, I want to borrow the class 2 A one.

Random thought: Damn. I miss Amrita. I wanna see my pet soon. hug hug? =/

random.

Showing people that you can tie knots in cherry stems with your tongue is like openly proclaiming that you’re an accomplished cunnilinguist. Right not, Yong Quan?